Jirah Ellie'Ann Chambers-Williams

Jirah Ellie’Ann Chambers-Williams (Sweet-Pea) was born to the proud mother of J’kestanie Chambers and Deterious Williams on April 15,2026 in Monroe Louisiana.

Father Yah wanted her back the same way that she was given, sinless. She gained her place on April 15,2026 at St. Francis Medical Center in Monroe, Louisiana.

Jirah’s death was proceeded by her beloved aunt Jakia Elisha Chambers and her great-grandmother Sherryl Ann Minniefield.

Baby Jirah leaves her love with her Grandmothers, Sammie Chambers and Jentina Bryant (Mark Bryant) all of Monroe, LA
Grandfather, Carlos Buggs of Ruston, LA; Godmother, Javonda Hodrick of Monroe, LA; Great-Grandfather, Edward Howard of Monroe, LA; Uncles, Ja’Mikal James of Monroe, LA and DeTimmeyon Williams of Atlanta, GA; Aunts, Jamie Chambers, April Williams and Jasmine Blackston both of Monroe, LA
Also cherishing her love, her six siblings: Quentin Criner, J’Qia Chambers-Williams, Jakera Chambers, Harmony Williams, Harleigh Jackson and Bryson Ignont all of Monroe, LA.

Before my daughter died, I didn’t know a body could do everything it naturally could and still lose.
Creating your name from first to last.
Imagining your character.
How fast the pregnancy passed.
I didn’t know you could feel life inside you one day
and be told the next… there isn’t any.
No warning.
No goodbye.
Just silence where there used to be kicks.
No more of your little hiccups.
I’ve seen so many miracles, my faith was shattered when I heard no cry.
My heart felt so cold, I could even have a complete weep nor cry when I seen your beautiful face.
You are my twin, my angel and my baby.
Her name is Jirah.
Sweet-pea is the nickname the family picked for her.
And I need people to understand this part
she didn’t “pass away.”
She didn’t “go to sleep.”
She died inside of me.
I still had to carry her.
Still had to deliver her.
Still had to look at a room full of people who didn’t know
whether to say congratulations or I’m sorry.
It hurts knowing that you have support, you have a team, a village but still feel so alone.
I held her.
I kissed her.
I talked to her hoping she’d open her eyes or move a finger.
I memorize her face.
She looks just like me.
And then I had to leave the hospital without her.
I was so jealous watching mama’s leave with their precious joy and mines was cold.
I listened to other’s baby heart beat through the hospital walls.
The heartbreak makes me weak.
To walk out of a place where I was supposed to leave with what was creating inside of me for 9 months,
and instead you’re carrying your bag I had prepared, a pack of paperwork and a lifetime of grief?
My arms physically ached for her.
They still do.
People say “are you okay?”
I naturally respond, “I’m okay”
I’m not.
The fight I had in me for Jirah is unmatched.
I just didn’t have a choice, I couldn’t choose at all, I had to let her go.
Because the world doesn’t stop for this kind of hurt.
It keeps moving while you’re stuck in the moment of confusion, the why’s and what could’ve been.
My heart is broken in a way that can’t be fixed.
I am a mother.
My daughter exists.
Even if the world didn’t get to meet her.
Again her name is Jirah, My Sweet-Pea
Because I will spend the rest of my life missing someone I barely got to hold.
If you’ve been here too… I’m so sorry.
I do know that before she was even created in my womb, Father Yah knew her and his will for her life.
That may be what hurts the most because regardless of what you may want in this life, his will stands.
He wanted her back pure, whole and sinless and I couldn’t be more grateful for that.
This is a pain you don’t survive, you just learn how to carry it.
I love you more than tongue can tell, Jirah, Always Mommy

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West Monroe, LA 71291

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